Intresting video about history of human

Maybe we don't know everything about our past. Who knows.

Edit: I've now watched the first 4 parts of the program at it's actually really interesting. Is it a hoax? I don't know.

Living in the moment is not the same as living like ther is no tomorrow

A relative of mine died suddenly and unexpectedly few years ago. No warning no nothing. She just collapsed. She was quite young. That was one of those reminders that life is short and unpredictable. It seems only during sudden tragedies we seem to remember these facts of life.

Usually after a while we forget this fact. It's buried underneath our other worries. I use the word 'worries' because that is how we often see it. We see death as a one more thing to worry about. Death is a problem to us. It's so big that we don't like to think about it. When we think about it, it's usually when something really unfortunate happens.

Personally I'm starting to see death as only one more event in our lives. I'd like to say solution but that sounds way too suicidal. I have no intention of speeding up my departure of this 65kg of meat, water and bones, that is delicately put together. When death is not a worry in my life I don't see it as something that could ruin my life prematurely.

So I'm trying to live in this moment just like everyone else. It's trendy these days but It's often trendy in all the wrong ways. Many of us think that living in this moment means doing as many things as possible in as short time as possible. We think we have to jump out of an airplane, ski down the mountain, buy a Ferrari, get respect, power, and fame before we die. We have to do it all, because it feels we would die in vain if didn't achieve something in our lives.

This whole living in the moment thing has twisted to something really strange. We collect all the things we can (money, experiences etc.), because some day we will be old and then we can't do anything. We justify our action today by thinking about our future.

Now there is the first argument that makes no sense: We live in the moment while worrying about the future. That's not living in the moment.

Secondly, we've become egocentric. Actually I think we've always been egocentric but now it seems it's getting worse. We are competing against each other on a global scale. Who's got the biggest ego, who is the greatest individual!

I'm not constantly worried about death, but I am worried about turning into egocentric in a time when I'd like to be eco-centric. There is no point in living like there is no tomorrow. There is always tomorrow. Maybe not to you and me because of a sudden accident or failure in our bodies, but there is always tomorrow for all the other people on this planet. It's egocentric to think otherwise.

For me living in the moment is realizing all that. Unfortunately my memory is often short. That is why I write it down.

Aphorism of the day

I rather be an artist with uncertain future than a worker with a certain future.
(artist = poor)


Of course 2pac disagrees with me:
"..I'd rather be a dead than o poor nigga.." song: I Wonder If Heaven Got A Ghetto

But then again 2pac is dead so now he might disagree with his own statement.

I'm living like a monk

2 months without getting drunk. My new personal record in 12years. I've had few beers but nothing more. I really don't know if this is a good thing or not. The fact is anyway that my social life has taken a big hit, i've lost weight (from where, I don't know). Those were the negative things. Positive things are that my shoulder is getting better, i've come up with few good ideas for my south america trip, and I haven't destroyed any brain cells with mild nerve poison called alcohol.

I'll get fired next week and if I decide to quite right away, my social life is quite non existing. I have the option of continuing until I leave to Mexico. How ever right now I see no obligations towards a company that fired me because of cold termination negotions (not sure of the term).

Let's see what happens. If anyone knows professional photographers that need free-of-charge assistants, let me know. Work doesn't have to be in Finland.

Election conclusion

I really don't know why I started reading about the presidential elections in USA 2 years ago. During that time I was living in Spain as an exchange student and had just ordered TIME magazine. Probably I just had too much spare time so I started reading articles about Hillary and other candidates.

I know I'm quite critical of everything that happens in US but dear readers don't take it personally. I'm  extremely critical towards many other things as well. I analyze everything I read, see, and hear and finally I glue all gathered information to one giant piece of modern art and hope that my fragile installation holds.

From time to time this installation crashes down and when that happens I have to admit that my view of the world was wrong. After the crash I start rebuilding from the scratches. The higher the installation gets the harder it is for me to admit I was wrong. Because of multiple crashes I've become quite humble. Nowadays I like building wide things instead of high ones. I have broadened my perspective of life so to speak or as a wannabe photographer would put it - broadened my histogram.

The last two years have shown me that USA is not the ultimate evil, neither are Islamic countries or anything else for that matter. For me, USA is more like the ultimate battle ground between good and bad (what ever those things are). USA is really the country where everything can happen. A man can rule the country for 8 years without ever admitting that some of his decisions have been 'unwise'.

So, these elections proved that anything is possible in USA. A black man from Honolulu will be the next president of a country that is probably more polarized than even before in it's history. Something even remotely similar could never happen here in Finland. For that I really respect USA. It's a country of great contrasts but it's still one united nation.

Of the topic:
Having said all this I do not understand why people want to be leaders? I think the founding fathers of USA had a vision of a perfect country or even a continent that was led by great leaders.

My Utopia is self-governance. Both of these of course are absurd visions since they would require all 7 billion people on Earth to agree upon everything.

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Nice video (about voting)

Vote or don't during your life. Don't really care but I like this video.